If there's one thing I know I am is that I am a wanderer. And wanderers are like dreamers. They both like to be carried away.
I like to float away and just be somewhere on my own with my own thoughts. I guess it would seem unhealthy for most people. You might think I'm a mental case or something. No. I just love to go some place, wander or dream around with joy and peace in me -wherever I can find them.
Maybe I do have issues where the mind is concern. Maybe.
Maybe we're all as screwed as I am. I don't know.
But if it's the place where we take our refuge, a place where we can be ourselves -away from all things that makes us less than who we are, then I guess it's not wrong to be there for a while. To take comfort it in. To make us feel who are again when we're starting to lose ourselves in the confusion.
It's different for everyone. Some might like being consumed by their passions and express it in some sort of way like in creating something out of nothing, or even in destroying something -sad to say. Or others getting lost in the simple ways that gives them joy. Like me. Like how dreaming of a better place gets me by a bad day.
Dreaming is not just about thinking of being in an another place, in a whole new situation. For me, it also means drifting. Not the in the literal sense of just being completely taken away. But something more like being carried away by the things I love to do. Something like being drifted to a more peaceful place while a listen to the music I love. Or being drifted to a whole new place of romance, adventure, etc with the books that I read -where I try and forget about some of the horrors of reality even for a just a couple of hours, or even for a minute.
I guess writing it now, I realized there may be something wrong in what I have just said. There's always that in reality. You may not agree with the things that I have written or you may. It's your own prerogative. I just came here to write and to say what is on my mind right now.
It just turned 50 minutes after 3 in the morning according to my laptop's clock as I'm writing it right now. And it had been almost an hour since I reread the words, "The End" on the final book of the Hunger Games Trilogy I started reading around the afternoon. I finished all 3 books. I'm not boasting or anything. I'm just trying to back what I'm trying to say to you. About me.
I remember how good it felt like to be engulfed by the words of the author, to be taken away by the complementing music in your ear, and to be drifted away by your imagination. Letting time do its wonders around you, but still be in a trance like state that you completely forgot that it had even existed in the first place. Even for just a couple of hours.
I had forgotten how I love it. It took almost a couple of months before I am able to find that one comforting position and be lost in what the book that I am reading has to offer. Well, in this case, it required 3 books which sufficed.
It's easier when it comes to music. I don't think I can live a day without having to listen to something I love. It's something as close as important as having a couple of hours of sleep for me.
I guess the point of all this was to express what I had realized as soon as I finished the books -how these books and songs help me get by. For what I'd find out about myself in all these. Or mainly, just to express myself tonight. I hope you are as bonkers as I am to understand of all of these.
Now I want to end this with me saying to you that it's not bad to be a dreamer at all. It has its ups and downs, yes. But one of the things dreamers do best is of course, to dream, to hope for better things. And we all know how much hope gives light even on the darkest of nights.
me, Reesh, Lexa, Bubbles, Zai, Verona, and Aldrich (photog)
Viva La Runa
models: Zai Ebido & Verona Salangsang
photogrpahers: Aldrich Lim & John Omnes (BTS)
stylist: Bubbles De Leon
hmua: Alexandra Poon
art director: Mafia Escasinas
Last Saturday, June 18, I was asked by my dear friend Kathreena Poon(Reesh) to be part of her creative team again this time, for her new clothing line called, VIVA LA RUNA, and for her bag line, DESPERATE FOR BAGS.
Being a bum that I am, of course I said. Her creative team included photographer friend of mine, Aldrich Lim, her sister, Lexa, and their friend, Bubbles De Leon. One of my childhood friends, John, tagged along as well to take BTS shots.
The clothes are so in the trend while the bags are a must have!
Go check out the newest collection of VIVA LA RUNA and DESPERATE FOR BAGS.
For the past few days, the tiny little voice in my head kept pulling me back towards writing. I don't know why, but I usually find myself in the middle of the night or in the early hours of the morning in front of a blank page of Word. And yet, no words to start writing. I tried writing something random -anything under the sun. But still, not a single passable thing to say.
It had become frustrating and annoying. But I just let it pass.
A couple of nights ago, I watched Limitless. It's a story about how a writer in the middle of a mental/creativity block got hold of this new drug that lets you use the maximum capacity of your brain -not just the 20%.
Maybe I need something like that. Just so I could finally write what it is that's blocked in my mind. Let me sigh heavily after all that...
Well since we're on the topic of writing, me and my cousin found this site where they compare your writing style to that of a famous writer. I started putting in different poems and freeverses that I had written before. And the names that came out were Stephen King, Stephanie Meyer, H.P. Lovecraft, etc... Do you see the pattern here? If not well, these are just some of the writers in the genre of horror, fantasy, and science fiction.
I guess this means I'm better off writing something like that. Hahaha. So then I tried putting in some of my prose, and 2 names came up: Oscar Wilde and Dan Brown. You cannot imagine how hard me and my cousin were laughing after all this.
It's your own call, if you're going to believe whatever the result is. But hey, it's nice to know that somehow you kind of write just like a famous writer. LOL.